Thursday, 2 March 2017

Starting Over And Letting Go



For the past year or two I've felt that life has kept throwing me curve balls.  It's almost been suffocating.  There have been moments where I've managed to catch my breath for just a quick second, before something else comes to knock the wind out of me.  As a result of this, my mental health has suffered.  But, what if it is all my fault?  

Once upon a time, I was a happy, positive person.  Everything was sunshine and rainbows.  But  as I grew older and started dealing with more grown up, adult things, that all changed.   I let things get me down.  I allowed life and other people to have an impact on my mood, on how I felt.  I imagine it is probably normal, but that doesn't make it okay in my opinion.

Work has been a massive issue for me for almost a year.  So I've decided to quit in a few months time.  I don't have anything to go to nor am I going to look for another job.  Getting on top of my mental health and taking care of myself is more important to me than any permanent employment.  Instead I'm going to save for the next few months, and work hard to become self employed.  If other people make it work, so can I.  And I will. 

Today, March 1st 2017, I am making a huge change in my life.  And, if you know me, you'll know that any "huge change" always starts with cleaning the house, changing the beds and opening every single window in the house!  I'm letting go of the negative energy that I have been clutching so hard to.  I'm no longer going to say "I can't".  I can do anything I put my mind to and I will.  I'm a very sensitive soul, but have so much love and happiness inside that I have been suppressed for so long.  It's time to get myself back out there and be the Meg that I really am!  I'll finally go on that date with that boy that has been asking me out for a couple of years, rekindle friendships with old friends that have started inviting me out places and actually make an effort with my hair and make up so I'm selfie ready at any given moment.  I'm also going to make more of an effort with the new friends I have made, some of who might be reading this.  This is just the start for me and I've never felt so positive about anything before. 

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